Oh So Funneh..

Oh life...

Heran, pelik bin ajaib. i guess its my subconscious mind response utk kmk mpun emoing last night. Sampei kan termimpi nya. Mun ekot kajian nok pernah kmk baca, mimpi, mimpi2 biasa, sbena nya adalah respon dari minda spara sedar atas apa nok berlaku dalam idup kita masa kita bangun/sedar.

Jadi lets say la, d siang hari kita sik sempat molah sesuatu. Then sometimes, kita akan termimpi molah benda ya, just utk melengkapkan "tugasan" utk hari ya.

Ada juak kajian madah mmg ya hasil dari minda separa sedar, tp in exact word nya, how our minda separa sedar response to stresses in life.

Well i guess in kmk mpun case, nya in response to my emoing tgh mlm tadik. Hahaha.. i know i put way too much stress atas dirik sendirik in terms of this matter of heart. Of course that is just me. Sampei kan termimpi, and mimpi kmk ngan nya jadi spy. Mcm siri crita Chuck. Sapa pernah ngga nang tauk.

First time rasa nya kmk mimpi kmk jadi spy tok. Haha.. And of course, nok jadi goofy nerd spy ya kmk la sapa lagik, and the ever beautiful sarah is her.

Dlm mimpi ya, kmk duak molah sigek mission, and bila scene kmk, kmk perlu buat sesuatu, tp mimpi ya xabis. Kmk woke up waaaaayyyy to early than kmk mpun usual time bangun dari tdor. Even lebih awal dari alarm. Haha..



Hence, kmk blogging awal pagi tok. Hahaha..

Kali, even though mlm tadik, masa emo ya, i feel like giving up or letting go, then mayb tok cara minda separa sedar tok coba utk mujok dirik kmk sendirik.

i don't know. Haha.. xtauk la.. entah la.. oh life..
Y U So Funneh..

i Don't Deserve You.

Even though this is true..

i know i don't deserve you.
Nor should i be anymore hopeful..

Someday? Maybe? Hopefully?

Someday?
Maybe?

Hopefully?

Wishful thinking jak la..

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Oh Well..

Alhamdullilah.

Syukur alhamdullilah di atas rezeki yang datang. Kmk bebena bena bena nang bersyukur, sbb xpernah rezeki datang sampei macam tok skali. Ofkos, kmk kenak juak beringat dgn dirik sendirik, udah ada kesenangan macam tok, jangan la nangga udah ada sikit duit ya alu nak boros sampei xingat dudi ari ada ka sik susah imerjensi ka apa.

Alhamdulliah.

Tapi..

Maok xmaok, kmk have to say the truth, even dalam this somewhat brief period of happiness, kmk xpat nak bebulak juak. i am feeling terribly lonely. TERRIBLY. LONELY.

SO SO TERRIBLY TERRIBLY LONELY.

Of course, kmk do have my own family to selebret it with bah nak? Then again, i wanted to spend this brief moment of happiness with a significant other. xjuak la nak madah someone special, tp close to that or somewhat camya la.

OH WELL.. just wishful thinking kata org puteh.

Mun pikir balit nak, ada juak menyusup elemen sadness dalam hati tok. Hahaha..

Cali juak mun mikir. Well, just the story of my life.

When i feel that little bit of happiness, i still feel lonely.
When i overcame with sadness, i feels terribly terribly terribly lonely.

Xpa la i guess. Kali tok dolok datang, then dudi dudi la that special someone will be here next to me. Mun. Highly unlikely, but then again what to do?
Just a story of my life.

Too Much Thinking Early Morning Tuesday.

Have ktk org(my imaginary reader/s) ever in a situation where, you so "desperately" wanted to text or chat or call the person that is currently occupying your mind tapi x maok nampak desperate or needy or CRAZY?

Have you?
Have you?

No?
i thought so, mmg la kmk ajak. LOL..

Because.
kmk is an idiot like that. Pathetic and idiotic.

Kmk dah, prepare la things to say or what kmk think that should sounds normal to say, in me head. Even kmk repeatedly ulang2 dlm palak, just to perfect it, just so that kmk xsalah cakap maybe, or... something.

Plus kmk ada taip udah dlm henfon, dlm notes, just in case kmk need to tukar ka sikit2 ka camne.

i KNOW!

Stupid right?

Then again, xda juak kmk sent or do it. i KNOW! Stupid right?!

Kmk nang such a mess la. Which if a girl to not want me after knowing this, its okay la i guess. i know that i am not a good example of a guy anyways.



Although the only thing that kmk really wanted to say is:

Ya jak sbena nya..

Wishful Thinking.

is feeling sad and lonely right now.

plus

is thinking of someone right now too. yeah, cuma dpt ya jak la, thinking of.. missing.. 

does she feels the same? highly unlikely.

Wishful thinking..

wishful thinking jak la.. 

Even though kmk is in a really down ngan depressed mood lately, hopefully.. actually, ada sbena nya someone out there IS thinking and missing kmk tok. Just maybe kmk tok yg too blind to notice.
and sticking to that notion..

(Sweet dreams)

Home With Dada.

Video tok adalah time lapse video dari sorang husband khas d polah utk bini nya, utk memberik tauk bini nya, apa d polah nya ngan their baby son time bini nya keja.

Nang best.


Maybe.

Someday in the future, when kmk have a son of my own, perhaps kali i would do the same... or perhaps it may even be much much more awesome. Why? Because kmk tok in a way, never really "grown up"!

Bwahahaha!

Serious, even nektok kmk maseh maok beli menan menan, nok time kmk masa kecik dolok xpernah ada, walaumacamnegine pun kmk coba pujok, majuk ngan either one of my parents utk beli. Hehe..

Apatah lagik time udah keja tok, ada duit kedirik, mcm2 jak mok d beli. Although nektok taste dah lain la, menan menan nok sophisticated, or more towards gadgetry.

Well, someday..

Someday.

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