Feelin Friday: Someone Out There?

So marek ngan ritok kmk cuti. After 5 bulan, kmk baru cuti. Cuti pun maseh byk juak lagik. So smua hari yg kmk start rilexing dari 1 May riya, 5 hari la smua nya termasok weekend tok kelak. Cuma nok xbest nya, xda plan g cne2. Just dudok umah jak, main game, ngga YouTube, "kemas bilit" and of course, paling penting: tidor petang, bukan slalu dpt nak owh.. then mlm susah mok tidor..

Hahaha..

Ritok tek, lekak anta adik kmk pegi keja, g breakfast skejab mkn roti canai. Rasa nya lmk udah sik mkn roti canai awal pagi weekdays, memandang kan kerja non stop jak spanjang 5 bulan tok. Bukan nya apa, kmk give way bah org lain cuti, sbena nya spatutnya kmk ada cuti juak last month, tapi atas sebab2(kerja juak & ada org emergency leave) kmk mpun cuti brought forward, so come to this day la.

Anyways, masa kmk dudok mkn consentret sambel main candy crush, ada beberapa org laki dudok sbelah, xlmk dgr cdak tetak2, duhal cdak ya tek ngenjen ada mpuan yg boleh tahan juak cute nya dudok d meja sberang. kmk sik juak lalek, tp nok molah kmk rasa sikit suk, bila cdak laki dah crita2 sama cdak sndirik, kmk rasa mcm kenak perati.

you know that feeling. then kmk jelin skejab si mpuan ya tek, duhal nya tgh ngusha kmk(i know.. i know.. perasan santan jak kmk sbena nya) senyum jak la kmk, skali nya senyum juak.. so kira kompom la nya perati kmk.. hehe.. perasan.. perasan.. nok cali nya, si mpuan ya mkn sorg2 jak.. impossibru? biasa nya mpuan cute2, kacak2, lawa2 xda mkn sorg2.. mustahil kata org melaya.. i honestly don't know.. sbb xda juak peneman ngagak dudok mkn dgn nya..

kmk pun cun2 juak dah abis mkn, time kmk byr, jelin kmk nya skali gik, senyum lagik nya ngan kmk.. again, i know.. i know.. nang perasaan kmk yang perasantan ya.. kali ada bekas kari or roti tetinggal kat mulut ka kali, kat baju ka kali, or aek tetumpah kat sloa ka kali.. ada juak kmk ngecheck bila dlm keta, tp xda juak..

yala dlm hati kmk mikir,

"maseh ada juak daya penarik kmk tok, ingak tek udah basik"

hahaha.. 

maybe kmk should get out more nak owh? ne la tauk dlm pada masa ya, jumpa la aher nya dgn jodoh.. hahaha.. lawak 20sen kata kita biak dolok marek.. ok la biak baya kmk dolok marek..

then again, *PART EMO TOK*


i can only say that i have nothing to give. i am neither good looking nor am i wealthy. Cuma yang pasti jak, when i love, i love completely. when i care, i care deeply. when i missed someone, i missed them dearly. ya pun entah, samada a gift or a curse.

as one thing that kind of annoys me, it feels sometimes like that i am just a transit. oh well, maybe i am WRONG. of course la i am definitely wrong, but just that, kmk feels this way.

it is unfortunate that kmk rasa yg i am only needed only for feeling in jak, you know, utk ngisik ruang sementara jak la bah..

i know kmk shouldn't think this way.

~sigh~

i guess the reason that kmk start dah balit emo tgh tgh mlm tok is, kmk is thinking of someone, yeah, even if mmg mustahil ngan impossible, kmk just hope that somebody out there is thinking of me too..