Feeling Friday: FEVERISH.

So today started just fine, everything is just normal. Have fun morning activity, which is just so funny. Kerja pun sama jak, xda apa2 masalah, although there is a little nervousness sbb bila2 masa jak audit akan dtg. Tgh hari, masa pegi sembahyang pun xda apa2. Pasya, lunch skali ngan adik kmk ngan bf nya.

Abis lunch tringin rasa nak mkn eskrem. So beli la tek cornetto sigek. Chocolate, just like i like it.

Balit ke kereta, dlm kreta panas lalu. Bila sampei ke ofis, mcm besa g toilet lok. Biasa la, buang nok sbelom, sbb dah d isik baru masa lunch tek. Hehe.. Tgh menjalankn bisnes ya, tiba2 berkasik. Beberapa kali. KATA ORG, bukan sy k, KATA ORG, mun bekasik dua tiga kali, mmg ada org tgh mikir ttg kita ya. KATA ORG la, bukan kmk.

Then time dkt nak abis keja, tiba2 jak out of the blue, bekasik2 gik beberapa kali. Lalu terlintas la dlm hati, "Yah, kuat juak org tok rindu/ngenang/mikir kmk nektok." Tek konon nya la.

TAPI

Rasanya selepas kali ke 8 bekasik berturut2, tiba2 ingus just meleleh klua. Cair, lancar kedak aek paip. Ya tanda jelas, bukan nya ada org rindu/ngenang/mikir kmk gik, ya tanda nya kmk dah DEMAM!

Hahahaha!

Abis keja, balit umah, time mandik, aek dah rasa mula sejok2. Besa mun dah demam kelak nak mcm ais jak rasa. Nektok pun, masa naip tok, ingus meleleh2 jak. Biar la. Cdak duak adik kmk dah tdor, bpk ngan mak outstation. xda org ngga pun.



Dah la. Bagus tdor awal.. err.. "awal" maka udah tgh mlm. Hopefully kmk will be in someone's dream. If not in this universe or reality, kali somewhere in the distance galaxy.

Hey you, sweet dreams...

Yeah.. (Sad Tone)

Hopefully it is so..

Although i know i am just overreacting, simply assuming. Yeah, for an idiot that i am, i know i do it all the time. Hahaha.. Cali x? NOT.

Just that berharap has never been any good to me. i know i should stop doing that, but i kept repeating the same mistake berulang ulang kali.

Yeah.. (Sad Tone)

Unexpected

Tringat last Monday, something that is so unexpected so early in the morning. Even though it abruptly woke me from my sleep, but it made me smile. Thinking about it nektok made me smile from ear to ear.



Stay with me, please? i am here if you need me.
Hahaha.. wishful thinking.

Sweet dreams.

Gudnight, Sleep Tight

Well, my weekend was the same old same old.. still nothing yang to be excited about. Saturday, stengah hari mengabis pagi dgn tdor. Actually dah bgn awal, lam kul 6am giya. Ngga jam, terpikir "Maseh awal tok," sambung balit, then bgn gik kul 730am. Pkir gik, sambong lok stengah jam kakya mandik then g breakfast.

Pasya bangun last2 dah kul 1230pm. kuang.. kuang.. kuang.. Kakya sik jadi plan mok kluar. Ada juak rasanya mok g brunch ka apa, then xda kwn nak d embak, alu xjadi. So the whole Saturday just lunch dgn mee sedap jak.

Hahaha..

So yesterday morning was the first time kmk pegi ngundi. Pegi ngan cousin2, sama2 juak kmk org first time. Ya jak la crita hujung minggu. Sbena nya ada juak rasa nak g ngga Iron Man 3 lepas ngundi, dgr org madah crita ya best, and again.. xda geng, so duk umah jak la.. hahaha..

Nektok maseh nggu apa full result GE#13 tok.

Bukan nya apa nggu announcement public holiday jak. xda lain. sapa xmok nak owh? Dpt juak nambah sehari gik cuti kmk tok. Hehe..

Anywho, in my head right now, thinking,"how i wish that i could stay up late with someone special watching this together."

Someday, insyaAllah.

Gudnyte, sleep tight.

Feelin Friday: Someone Out There?

So marek ngan ritok kmk cuti. After 5 bulan, kmk baru cuti. Cuti pun maseh byk juak lagik. So smua hari yg kmk start rilexing dari 1 May riya, 5 hari la smua nya termasok weekend tok kelak. Cuma nok xbest nya, xda plan g cne2. Just dudok umah jak, main game, ngga YouTube, "kemas bilit" and of course, paling penting: tidor petang, bukan slalu dpt nak owh.. then mlm susah mok tidor..

Hahaha..

Ritok tek, lekak anta adik kmk pegi keja, g breakfast skejab mkn roti canai. Rasa nya lmk udah sik mkn roti canai awal pagi weekdays, memandang kan kerja non stop jak spanjang 5 bulan tok. Bukan nya apa, kmk give way bah org lain cuti, sbena nya spatutnya kmk ada cuti juak last month, tapi atas sebab2(kerja juak & ada org emergency leave) kmk mpun cuti brought forward, so come to this day la.

Anyways, masa kmk dudok mkn consentret sambel main candy crush, ada beberapa org laki dudok sbelah, xlmk dgr cdak tetak2, duhal cdak ya tek ngenjen ada mpuan yg boleh tahan juak cute nya dudok d meja sberang. kmk sik juak lalek, tp nok molah kmk rasa sikit suk, bila cdak laki dah crita2 sama cdak sndirik, kmk rasa mcm kenak perati.

you know that feeling. then kmk jelin skejab si mpuan ya tek, duhal nya tgh ngusha kmk(i know.. i know.. perasan santan jak kmk sbena nya) senyum jak la kmk, skali nya senyum juak.. so kira kompom la nya perati kmk.. hehe.. perasan.. perasan.. nok cali nya, si mpuan ya mkn sorg2 jak.. impossibru? biasa nya mpuan cute2, kacak2, lawa2 xda mkn sorg2.. mustahil kata org melaya.. i honestly don't know.. sbb xda juak peneman ngagak dudok mkn dgn nya..

kmk pun cun2 juak dah abis mkn, time kmk byr, jelin kmk nya skali gik, senyum lagik nya ngan kmk.. again, i know.. i know.. nang perasaan kmk yang perasantan ya.. kali ada bekas kari or roti tetinggal kat mulut ka kali, kat baju ka kali, or aek tetumpah kat sloa ka kali.. ada juak kmk ngecheck bila dlm keta, tp xda juak..

yala dlm hati kmk mikir,

"maseh ada juak daya penarik kmk tok, ingak tek udah basik"

hahaha.. 

maybe kmk should get out more nak owh? ne la tauk dlm pada masa ya, jumpa la aher nya dgn jodoh.. hahaha.. lawak 20sen kata kita biak dolok marek.. ok la biak baya kmk dolok marek..

then again, *PART EMO TOK*


i can only say that i have nothing to give. i am neither good looking nor am i wealthy. Cuma yang pasti jak, when i love, i love completely. when i care, i care deeply. when i missed someone, i missed them dearly. ya pun entah, samada a gift or a curse.

as one thing that kind of annoys me, it feels sometimes like that i am just a transit. oh well, maybe i am WRONG. of course la i am definitely wrong, but just that, kmk feels this way.

it is unfortunate that kmk rasa yg i am only needed only for feeling in jak, you know, utk ngisik ruang sementara jak la bah..

i know kmk shouldn't think this way.

~sigh~

i guess the reason that kmk start dah balit emo tgh tgh mlm tok is, kmk is thinking of someone, yeah, even if mmg mustahil ngan impossible, kmk just hope that somebody out there is thinking of me too..