Stay Safe, Jaga Dirik 2.

My story of the day is really something that i myself x jangka akan berlaku dlm my family. Not my own family but my whole family in general. Semoga menjadi pengajaran & peringatan utk dirik kmk sendirik and hopefully for those who are reading this also.

Benda2 mcm biasa nya kita baca dlm newspaper or kita sendirik pikir xakan berlaku kat keluarga kita or extended family. Nang x sangka juak la bnda tok terjadi.

Well camtok, situasi nya agak sama dengan kes2 nok udah berlaku & d laporkan dalam TV, dlm newspaper even dlm blog2 org. Pernah dengar mpuan lari dgn foreigner? X kisah la, org afrika ka, org pakistan ka, org turki ka, org indonesia ka or org puteh nok dari bermacam negara d seluruh dunia tok.

INGAT TOK:

Kalau maok berkenalan ngan org foreigner dlm apa2 juak media social kat internet tok, berkenalan la, xkesah, even kmk pun ada kwn dari media social nok kenal dari bermacam cara temu, ada dari sama minat band, ada dari sama minat genre movie, ada sama minat main computer game, yes kmk ada mcm2 jenis kwn luar negara yg dari mcm2 latar belakang.

The thing is right now, if you are a woman, and.. kmk have to put this lightly in terms of words. If you're a woman and looking for someone utk cerita2 ka, kenal2 ka ngan org lelaki foreigner, you know, just to kenal2 ajak, fine by all means xda org melarang.

But.. if org ya.. how to say this.. start to be "extra" nice, compliment lebih2 or may even meluah perasaan ka. Please by the love of god, take extra precaution. If he even say that maok sik travel ke luar negara utk jln2 ka, utk ngagak nya ka, even perhaps offer tolong carik kerja bagus nok lebih bagus dari nok dlm Malaysia tok sendirik.

INGAT: RED FLAG!

Of course kmk xpat juak nak mdh jgn xpercaya langsung. or mmg sidak tok org jaik. BUT.. SERIOUSLY MOST UNFORTUNATE cases and KEBANYAKAN nya adalah PENIPU! Especially mun udah kenal "LAMAK" tek konon, bait bahasa nya(remember it is only online), or if skyping, handsome camne pun org ya, mcm Shah Rukh Khan ka, mcm Ryan Rosling ka, mcm Antonio Banderas ka, if nya start being lebih "bait" dari biasa kata org, ngan torg mpuan, you must trigger something in your head:

IF THIS GUY IS FOR REAL?

Aok mmg la nya real, manusia, i did not meant alien or hantu. BUT what i meant is, is he who he says he is. Mun nya mdh nya lawyer, how are you to know? Mun nya mdh nya kali la konon tek humble, just delivery man, how are you to know? Nya kali d sebelah bumi, kita d sitok, how are you to know?

Byk udah kes mpuan Malaysia jadi keldai dadah nok d laporkan, and based of apa nok udah kmk baca dari akhbar or internet sik smua berjaya d selamatkan, mbak balit ke Malaysia. Byk nok maseh dlm penjara d seluruh pelusok dunia. Wallahualam, nok x d lapor entah berapa byk. Ngan entah camne ndak ka nasib cdak ya.

Byk d janji kan duit lumayan, kerja bagus, cinta or even just a chance to travel ngga tempat org. Aher nya kenak tipu, jadi ejen dadah. Even ada nok udah tauk tapi maseh mok juak ngekot sbb semata2 mok ambik duit cara senang.

Bukan nak persangka burok ngan cdak laki foreigner tok, tp udah berlaku dlm family sendirik, what am i to say more?

Lebih2 lagi bila nok terjadi tok, seorg isteri. Kmk xtauk apa motivasi nya utk ngekot lari ngan org kedak ya, sampei sanggup ninggal anak2 nok maseh kecik. Kmk xmok.. sbena nya xsanggup tyk lebih2 sbb ngga org nok teraniaya ya nang nampak kecewa & marah bila ngenang isteri nok d sayang molah nya camtok.

All that i can say now is, smoga yg teraniya ya tabah menghadapi dugaan dari Allah nok nang besar tok. Apatah lagik dgn menjaga anak2 nok maseh kecik. Semoga d berik kekuatan, ngan d berik petunjuk utk meneruskan hidup lepas tok. Kmk org akan nolong nok ne nok termampu.

Utk yg lain2 please stay safe, and jaga dirik bait2.

Will The Future Be Fine?

So yesterday, as kmk megang my baby niece for the first time, flood of thoughts came into my head.. Some or most of the questions from time to time, ada slalu d ulang2 kmk in this stupid blog of mine. i guess this could clearly show what a mess i am.

of how insecure i really am.
of how unreliable i really am.

entah la, kmk x tauk camne nak menjelas kan the feelings and thoughts yg ada dlm hati ngan palak kmk tok. because IF someday someone finally sees something in me and wants to be besides me going forth into the unknown future and.. molah kmk terfikir..

someday in the future;

will i be a good husband for her?
will i be a good father for my child/children?
will i be a good son in law for her family?

i know, nang totally idiotic ngan stupid mun fikir camtok bah.

The thing is kmk nektok pun xterurus dgn dirik sendirik, camne la nak jaga anak org or moreover anak sendirik kelak. Tp teringat juak ada org mdh ngan kmk, i think my former colleague kali ka sapa time ya; nya mdh don't worry, when the time comes you'll know what to do.

i guess i shouldn't be terlampau gilak apa nama nya, terlalu over gilak fikir tentang tok.. eerr.. ada tiga perkataan yg sama maksud sia.. haha.. Bukan nya apa, lets make it simple la, i look up to my dad. He has done a lot for our family, blood, sweat, sacrifice and much much much more usaha nok kmk org anak2 tok sik tauk and cuma nya ngan mak kmk jak yg tanggung.

So i know, i am not even half the man my dad is. i know i am not even a good big brother to my younger siblings. How can i, being the "man" that i am now, can take care of another person well being..

Hahaha.. Mcm2 jak..

Also, actually..
is thinking of someone nektok and tetak kedirik, why should i do so.. i don't even deserve her. Hahaha.. May Allah bless you woman! thank you for giving me the attention, can you please stop going into my head when i wanted to sleep(PERASAN).. hahaha..

What the hell am i doing thinking about this and ngerepak tgh2 mlm tok, nak owh?
Don't worry. InsyaAllah, dgn usaha & doa everything will be fine. Hopefully. Amin.

And Also..

Story of my life..

and also knowingly it is pointless to hope..
and also the fact that i am idiot as well..




(harap2 by emoing before i go to sleep, kmk will get her into my dreams... again)

Oh So Funneh..

Oh life...

Heran, pelik bin ajaib. i guess its my subconscious mind response utk kmk mpun emoing last night. Sampei kan termimpi nya. Mun ekot kajian nok pernah kmk baca, mimpi, mimpi2 biasa, sbena nya adalah respon dari minda spara sedar atas apa nok berlaku dalam idup kita masa kita bangun/sedar.

Jadi lets say la, d siang hari kita sik sempat molah sesuatu. Then sometimes, kita akan termimpi molah benda ya, just utk melengkapkan "tugasan" utk hari ya.

Ada juak kajian madah mmg ya hasil dari minda separa sedar, tp in exact word nya, how our minda separa sedar response to stresses in life.

Well i guess in kmk mpun case, nya in response to my emoing tgh mlm tadik. Hahaha.. i know i put way too much stress atas dirik sendirik in terms of this matter of heart. Of course that is just me. Sampei kan termimpi, and mimpi kmk ngan nya jadi spy. Mcm siri crita Chuck. Sapa pernah ngga nang tauk.

First time rasa nya kmk mimpi kmk jadi spy tok. Haha.. And of course, nok jadi goofy nerd spy ya kmk la sapa lagik, and the ever beautiful sarah is her.

Dlm mimpi ya, kmk duak molah sigek mission, and bila scene kmk, kmk perlu buat sesuatu, tp mimpi ya xabis. Kmk woke up waaaaayyyy to early than kmk mpun usual time bangun dari tdor. Even lebih awal dari alarm. Haha..



Hence, kmk blogging awal pagi tok. Hahaha..

Kali, even though mlm tadik, masa emo ya, i feel like giving up or letting go, then mayb tok cara minda separa sedar tok coba utk mujok dirik kmk sendirik.

i don't know. Haha.. xtauk la.. entah la.. oh life..
Y U So Funneh..

i Don't Deserve You.

Even though this is true..

i know i don't deserve you.
Nor should i be anymore hopeful..

Someday? Maybe? Hopefully?

Someday?
Maybe?

Hopefully?

Wishful thinking jak la..

via Your Modern Procrastinator tumblr.

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