Sorry For My Stupidity.

You know what sucks?

When you said something although at that moment in time doesn't seems to have much impact, then suddenly you're realised that you're the one inadvertently caused someone else's blood and sweat hard work gone to waste. i know i am at fault here. Stupid.

STUPID. i am stupid.

Yeah, i guess, the lesson here is, if you're not too sure, just shut the fuck up.

i am now feeling down. So down because i have let someone down. All the hard work done has gone to waste, just because, i, in one way or another, have done or better put, said something that is just clearly not the right information.

Oh god damn it.

If there is some way that i could really show how sorry i am, i would do it in a heartbeat. Then again, whats done is done, nothing can change that now.

i guess i don't have the capacity to properly weight in or see how much hard work people have done behind the scene. i know i am that stupid. STUPID.

i guess sorry is meaningless in this situation, but i truly am.

Sorry for not realizing the huge mistake it was in the first place.
Sorry for saying something without properly seeking the correct information.
Sorry for throwing your hard work down the drain.
Sorry for letting you down.

i know there is no way i can make up for this, please excuse my stupidity and i'll be more careful for what i say next time, or i just better shut the fuck up.

Please forgive me.
Sorry.

Upset: Laptop Rusak.

Aaaaarrrrgggghhh..

Upset yes, tapi xla sampei raging(marah gila), buuuttt.. close and almost. Laptop kmk rosak kipas nya. Okay, if by any chance you guys, my imaginary readers sik faham? Let kmk explain.

Laptop, modern one, or.. eerr.. "lastest" ones, please mind the "..". Nektok modern laptop ada duak igek kipas, biasa nya sigek kipas utk CPU and sigek gik utk GPU. If antara salah satu daripada sigek kipas tok rosak, or even both then, bak kata org puteh dalam movie, you're screwed.

Sebab nya, kipas ya berfungsi utk menyejukkan CPU & GPU(if ada dlm laptop, most modern one do) daripada terlampau panas and rusak. So, if ktk org mpun laptop suddenly pandei padam sendirik, nya ada display madah "this laptop will shut down.." or something in that manner, or even just padam terus kedirik. Meaning CPU laptop ya udah terlampau panas way beyond threshold and nya mpun security built in akan terus shut down laptop ya sendirik.

In which what my laptop did. Luckily, mun makei Windows 7, if the laptop supports it, kita leh engkah power option nya pegi ke Battery Saver or Low Consumption, or something in that manner. So i have to make do with that. Laptop kmk still leh hidup, up and running. At the moment la.

BUT KMK X DAPAT MAIN GAME! FFUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!

Sbena nya kmk udah order laptop baru, tapi maseh blom sampei. Which also close to enrage me. Sebab lamak udah order tp belom ada juak.

The fact that since a kid and sampei nektok, kmk nang gamer, so mun xdpt main game feveret, rasa nang xtauk how to put in words. Bored ada, boring gila ada.. haha..

So now, i am reduced to only browsing the web & ngga YouTube jak. Which is... sooo freaking

BORING!

LOL!

Feelin Friday: Missing.

Missing as in Rindu.



Sometimes i can't just help it but kmk like to imagine that perhaps someone would missed me, just as kmk thinking tentang org ya. Wishful thinking. Wishful thinking but hopefully in an alternate universe, ada org serupa kmk dlm dunia ya. That kmk dlm dunia ya when kmk have someone in mind and missing that person, the person would feel the same.

It may not happen in this reality, but if such a thing wujud, harap2 la kmk dlm dunia ya would be in love and be love.

(i missed you)

Welcome to Feeling Friday.

Kesah Kasut...

Kmk have always been a shoe person. Apa nok kmk meant by that is, kmk xsuka makei slepar. Nang dari zaman sekolah menengah dolok, semenjak kenal sukan ekstrem that is Skateboard, kmk xsuka makei slepar. Mun bejalan ka, bersukan ka(of course la), even masok lam utan pun kmk maseh makei kasut.

Mun kmk bebeli kasut, kmk nang carik jenis kasut skate, sebab kasut skate, rasa nya comfy tp sik terlalu nipis rasa. i meant, kasut skate biasa nya nang fit yet comfortable. Sebab sukan skate nang ekstrem juak, so kasut ya mesti dapat tahan dengan apa2 jak jenis keadaan nok akan berlaku. Mun kmk makei kasut ya, kmk rasa kaki kmk fully protected.

So..

Malam marek, mak xtauk mok masak apa k makan malam, then bpk suroh pegi beli KFC jak. Bila sampei ke Boulevard, heran sebab kaki macam berpasir jak bejalan. Bila masok Boulevard bok perasan, kasut belom becuci sejak dari kampong ariya, about rasanya tiga minggu lepas kali, counted minggu tok juak.

Nang kotor lalu jak kasut kmk. Sebab balit kampong ariya, hari nang ujan jak. Tanah pun becak. Kmk ngekot pegi kubur pun tanah sia nang becak juak.

Meaning to say, kasut kmk maseh ada tanah kubur juak. Nope. Not kidding. Apa nak d takut? Bukan nya ada apa2. Tanah kubor nenek kmk juak ya. Mun nak d ekot ati, nang kmk xmok nyuci kasut kmk ya. Bila nangga keadaan kotor kasut kmk ya, nasib juak kmk xjadi keluar hari marek.

Kira nya marek nak keluar g brunch. Sebab lamak dah rasa nya xkluar g makan. Nasib. Mun kmk kluar juak, nang malu jak rasa mun sedar kasut maseh kotor. Nasib xjadi. Sebab kmk xda kasut lain lagik nak d pakei ke sine2.

Nang jaoh jak rupa nya dari masa kmk mula2 beli dolok. Empat.. or tiga tahun lepas, masa ya kmk meli nya tahun 2010.

Kmk mun makei kasut, bukan nak membangga dirik or ngegeh nak ngeso, tapi honestly, kmk nang "cermat" makei. Or.. perhaps word nok sesuai kali, bagus2 makei. Sebab nak madah cermat sik juak, kmk makei kasut tok ke sine2 jak, bejalan ke pasar ka, g balit kampong ka, bersukan ka even masok utan.

Tp pagi tok tek, udah kmk cuci kasut ya. Harap2 dapat balit karer sevibrant masa kmk mula2 beli dolok. Sebab kmk nyuci k omo Daya bah. Mun d ekot iklan d tibi, nang karer nya jadi terang balit. Mun sik juak, nang bebulak la iklan dlm tibi ya.. LOL!

So anyways..

Kmk nang jenis malas nak bebeli duak tiga igek kasut. Yang penting rasa selesa, kmk senang hati makei, even if design nya simple jak yet d mata kmk nya kacak. Sigek jak cukup. Mun ngekot apa d padah Gandalf dlm LOTR, "One shoe to use it all". umm.. whatever that meant la. You get it right? Selagik current kasut kmk maseh belom rosak or ancor d pakei, kmk akan still makei nya sampei la kasut ya totally rosak, only then kmk meli baru.

Bayangkan jak previous kmk nok tok:

Kamek meli tok tahun 2007. Then baru tukar ke kasut nok current tok. So kira2 empat tahun kmk makei. To be exact 26/10/2007 kmk meli, nok kmk makei nek tok 05/09/2010 tarikh kmk meli. How do i know that? Dlm exif data gambar ya ada madah bah. So nak madah kmk bebulak, nang xdpt la. Sebab setiap gambar yg d ambik ada exif data ya madah bila gambar ya d ambik.

i guess, you can say that kmk jenis loyal. One is enough. xperlu carik banyak2. Mun banyak2 kelak susah nak jaga. Why mok byk2? Sigek ya jak dah boleh d embak ke sine2. Xperlu la nak byk2 pakei ngeso nak owh? Hehe.. What on earth am i talking about?

Saja jak engkah allegory ya sia, or simple terms, double meaning bah. Whether you get it or not, up to you to read it again.

Of course kmk cerita tentang kasut. What else? LOL.