Keep Breathing.

Lonely Weekend.

Yes, as usual, like my any other weekends. Cuma minggu tok jak, kmk rasa much more lonelier than previous other weekends. Entah juak lah. Serious, kmk nang rasa keseorangan gilak2. Rasa mok klua juak, just jalan2 ngilang boring.

Tapi jalan2 sorang2 lejuk udah kmk, apatah lagik tetiba jak rasa kekosongan dalam hati hujung minggu tok. Rasa juak mok carik geng2 lamak utk klua, tapi kebanyakan geng2 udah ada hal masing2. Xda ke sine2 juak la kmk, just g gunting rambut jak. Sbb dah xda apa2 nak d polah.

Nang cali juak mikir, it is not that kmk d paksa utk hidup dlm keadaan kedak tok, kmk yg molah dirik kmk kedak tok. The only person that is to be blame is myself, tul x?

Then again, the fact that kmk dah lamak lalu idup dgn cara tok, who would ever want to join me, right?

Of course i dont want to be this way "forever". i want to be of someone's company. i want to be that someone yg d carik whenever she feels lonely juak. However, kmk dont think anybody would want kmk to be that person anyway.

Kadang2 kmk just hopes that somehow perhaps kali someday someone will feel that, kmk will be the person that someone would miss, that person yg someone would feel lonely if kmk not around, that person that when i not there kmk will be on that someone's mind always, that person yg mun kmk suddenly xda someone would worry or at least la curious why. Its just that, kmk hope that someday, kmk would be loved, rather than just kmk yg the one who loved.

Unfortunately, truth be told, kmk rasa highly unlikely. Bukan nak nambah rasa down tok lagik utk dirik sendirik, but it has always been this way bah. Nak ngeluh pun, what to do. Just the story of my life.