Kmk xPat Tdor!

She was so beautiful today.
senyuman nya melts me. to the core.
senyuman nya make me so happy even though skejab jak.
you know.
because of the reality. of kmk nang hanya lah akan jadi pemerhati.

rasa cam baruk jatuh hati jak.
macam.

ya Allah, ya Allah, ya Allah.
i LOVE that woman so freaking damn much.
tapi kmk harus ngan mesti sedar, kmk xboleh penting kn dirik sendirik.
kmk xpat maksa nya terimak kmk.
nya pun dah ada pilihan hati nya sendirik.

ya Allah.
my GOD.
benda tok dah brapa taun kmk ulang2 ulang2 ulang2 ulang2??

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Ujan.
Ujan. Ujan tok nang mcm faham2 jak kmk tengah peras & emosi tok.
i MISS her.
so so so damn much.

Ujan. rasa nya dekat sminggu dah ari tok ujan2. tapi best nya mun ujan malam2. sejok, nyaman kit mun mok tdor. (but kmk xpat tdor)

terkenang.
sbut sal ujan tok. ada sigek particular thing that she sometimes polah yg nang kmk rasa cali, lucu, gelik ati, jenaka & cute, all at the same time. usually nya akan update status lam facebook that goes something like:

"mun ujan2 camtok rasa mok kawen jak"

lam palak kmk, kmk mejin kmk balas status nya.

"i'm here gurl.. marry me.."

yup, best bah, mun ujan2 sejok camtok. cuddle up, keep each other warm. just hugging each other xlebeih dr ya. heaven. bahagia.

lam palak kmk mejin, MUN la nya terimak kmk.

nang kmk hold her tight.
keep her warm.
keep her safe.
keep her happy.

tp ya jak la tek. just mejin jak la.

p/s: dammit gurl. kmk xpat tdor. thinking of you. missing you. (like i said, mejin jak klaka ngan nya)