Family, Kids, Etc..

Sure.
Someday kmk maok a family of my own. Who doesn't. Bukan nya kita tok diam negara maju mcm Jepon, US or Europa yang dah rasa bekeluarga tok xpenting utk idup. Yes, ada org giya. Jgn torg xcayak. Cdak merasakan yg mun berkahwin secara sah, bekeluarga & ada anak tok menyusahkan. Bagus gik idup tanpa ikatan apa2 dgn pasangan. Mun dah lejuk dgn org tok carik gik org lain.

Kita xsama. Kita ada agama, ada adat & gaya idup yg jaoh beza dari cdak nok kedak ya. Sigek perlu d ingat, sebagai org muslim, siapa lagik yg akan mendoakan kesejahteraan kita d alam barzakh, mun sik dari doa2 anak yang soleh betul sik?

Even though, kmk tok xsesuai utk berdakwah or mengingatkn sapa2, but kmk harap ada juak sikit ilmu & bekalan agama utk dirik sendirik, and hopefully cukup utk menjadi seorang suami and ketua keluarga kelak.

Does that means that i am ready utk idup bekeluarga?
Honestly i don't know, maybe sik, maybe yes. Who knows. Bukan nya kmk ada pengalaman pun. Hahaha.. Tapi kmk will pick up & ambik apa2 jak nasehat, pengalaman & ilmu, apa2 jak la utk mempersiap kan dirik kmk yg xtahu menahu apa2 tok.

Of course i have someone in mind, that maybe, ne tauk, dgn izin Allah, akan bersama2 dgn kmk menempuh masa depan. Yes, there is no other. It has always been her.

Funny thing la, she's the first woman that kmk feels & envisioned yg the person kmk wants to be with utk menempuh cabaran idup tok bersama2. Kmk xpernah ada kwn mpuan yg kmk rasa so much in love with, like this before. Actually "funny" ya mungkin xsesuai utk describe situasi tok.

At this point in time, since bday kmk riya. Kmk dah xmok force my feelings towards her lagik. Kmk xmok paksa2 nya lagik dah. She already knows how i feels about her. She knows that my feelings for her will stay the same.
If she feels that kmk xsesuai utk nya, that i am not the one, what to do la, so be it.
But.
If she needs me, kmk will always be here for her. Always waiting. Always.
Bak kata Jason Mraz dlm lagu nya You and i Both;
"Telephone works both ways" betul sik? She can call me, text me, or even perhaps Facebook me.
Kmk will be more than happy to be there for her.

Whatever the future may be la.
Kmk hanya merancang apa yang terbaik utk dirik kmk, utk nya(hopefully), and of course masa depan. Cuma ketentuan nok pasti, hanya Allah jak nok tauk.
i am so much in love with her. That is the reality kinektok.